A clown alone confronts his psychological fears
He’s battled life’s hardships for many years.
Now struck down by destiny’s sinful spears
His soul sprouts silent screams with his invisible tears.
This inner madness now, blossoms like a lotus tonight
As against his demons, he is constantly is at a fight.
He knows he’ll be center-stage blinded by the spotlight
Oblivious to his trauma, you shall mock at him with delight.
Yet towards the stage, he takes a step
In the mouth of the cannon, he inserts his neck.
He tries to make you smile in every aspect
Still, he never earns your compassion & respect.
Impaled by the undisclosed sorrow of his own
Amidst your ruthless roar, stranded on the stage alone
Depression digs deep down, in his every bone
& his helpless heart becomes a lifeless stone.
You his slaughter self-respect & you call him names
He silently prays while misery dribbles in his brain
“Oh god! Isn’t there a morphine to ease my pain,
Can’t anyone stop this agony that slithers in my veins?”
About his torment, his fake smiles don’t give a clue
If only about his nightmares you ever knew.
Perhaps this is the clown’s destiny what can you do
You give tears to him, who creates a smile for you.
Note: There are times when in life you feel as if your existence is reduced to that of a clown by the same person, about whom you care for the most. It’s a painful feeling isn’t it? When you sacrifice your happiness for someone’s happiness & that respective person gives you tears of sorrow in return. Based on my personal experience I would just like to share that please don’t let people whom you genuinely love, take your love for granted. It’s better to smile alone, than cry due to some fake person. My precious you are and always be complete in your own respective self, so please never beg anyone to love you. ❤