I’m The Fire

They say I’m toxic & they turn away
For darkness dribbles in every word I say.
Although the tears in my eyes I try not to display
Yet fear unfurl within me in a mysterious way.

My demons smile witnessing the darkness I’ve designed,
And they say “We are two of a kind”.
They enjoy my unsettled melancholic mind
& in this thought my aching soul chooses to unwind.

We waltz under the pale moonlight that blatantly beams
Gradually they smother me with their wicked schemes.
Nightmares are born from my innocent bleeding dreams
As my demons escalate my insecurities to new extremes.

I’m left broken on the ground in a vulnerable state
As in my head I suffer, I suffocate.
But with a rebel spirit my broken self, I integrate
ferocious, furious & fearless, a fire within me I create.

Now, I’m the fire that romances with the horrors of the night
Perhaps the rhymes I write, fills your heart with delight.
But I’m the fire that burns everything, that’s in my sight
I’m the fire that carelessly rages & blazes bright.

I’m the fire that was born from a feeling of disdain
As my horrifying sanity made me insane.
So darling please don’t try to understand my pain
For I don’t want you to burn in my flame.

Witness from afar how I take my traumas in my stride
As none of my bleeding scars I hide.
For every day a new death I’ve died
But now I’m the fire, that burns its melancholy with pride.

Note: Have you ever felt closer (on an emotional level) to your demons as compared to the people around you? Well that’s the dark place my mind is right now & honestly it’s in such situations when I prefer to be alone rather than talk with people. I don’t want to hurt or burn anyone with the fury of my emotional vulnerability because I feel like the fire that rages & burns anything that’s in its course. I appreciate your support & understanding but this internal war of emotions pertaining to the poem that’s due on the 17th June is something I must fight it out on my own. Thank your for your love & support, I hope you understand that I’m not turning my back on you instead I’m addressing some of my past demons & I wouldn’t want to drag you into that emotional mess of mine. I carry this dwelling darkness of mine with pride, as I see it as an opportunity to shine & evolve. ❀

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50 thoughts on “I’m The Fire

  1. Have known you for a year now. And this 12 months.. i have seen 11 months of postive aspects and one month of undesired hopes. No doubt your poem is perfectly dressed with right emotions and words. But i must tell you.. that every train has its destination and it makes nearly same stops in every travel. So consider this month.. a desserted stop of only 30 seconds. Try. πŸ™‚ I know you must already prepared for another dark poetry on 17. But i am also hoping it will give you and your readers a different light.

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    1. Thanks for your concern and uplifting words but it is something like an emotionally vulnerable phase of mine that I know I’ll overcome through the passage of time. Thank you for your positive response and support πŸ™πŸ™‚

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  2. Nightmares are born from my innocent bleeding dreams
    As my demons escalate my insecurities to new extremes.

    I’m the fire that romances with the horrors of the night

    Wow wow!! This was so powerful! I felt the strength your words.
    Such a beautiful way to express your feelings.

    Amazing! 🌻🌻🌻

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  3. People who love you shall love also your demons and the mess they cause you and be willing to accept and understand every bit of it! That was quite a ride and I sincerely invite you to feel free if you need an ear or help, I’m always open … Thank you for sharing ~ πŸ™ˆπŸŒŸπŸ’

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  4. Yes, I have fallen into a long, mental state of anguish where my hatred toward something as well as toward someone consumed me and brought me closer to my demons than to my family and friends. That said, without knowing what demons you are fighting, I will never say I understand what you are going through. There’s no way I could. We each fight our own personal wars. I don’t know what internal fight your poem will deal with for June 17th, but I hope you find peace within yourself soon. It is important to face our internal enemies, express our full emotionsβ€”have our sayβ€”so we can find closure and walk away with a lighter spirit. Write out the words you feel even if through writing them, you relive the anger. Just write, Sid, and know that your friends are out here supporting you. With an outstretched hand, Leslie.

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    1. I personally wouldnt roast paneer tikka on this fire as its blazing too bright at the moment, might end up burning the precious paneer. πŸ˜… Thanks for your suggestion yes writing is a therapy in itself.

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  5. Gorgeous words. I relate to what you feel. My demons and I have been there together.
    You know, fire rages for a little while but then it burns itself down to ashes.
    The ashes left by the flames is where the phoenix is born and rises.
    So keep burning. You’re being reborn. πŸ™‚

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  6. Another beautiful poem. We all are attracted to fire just like moths but we don’t want to hurt those we love therefore we burn ourselves. During these dark times those demons bring light but we have to remember they are leading us out of the darkness. They are not the light, only leading us to it. I’ll be thinking about you Sid. Sending tons of love and hope. (Don’t be afraid to reach out to friends and family) πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—

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  7. Hey Sidharth.
    The poem written by you undoubtedly explains the agony and pain that now you are witnessing. Those demons will continue to haunt you until you overcome and win over them. The poem is indeed full of suffering but the last line speaks of your will power to fight your demons. And I can maybe understand that u don’t really wanna talk about it . As sometimes it doesn’t help but intensifies the bearing . It happens with me too ,but not really like that.πŸ™Š
    May you find all the strength and support from within to come out of all this . “Tough times don’t last but tough people do!” Last but not the least ,i would be really happy to help you in anyway possible.πŸ˜ŠπŸ’œπŸ’œπŸŒŸπŸ’«

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  8. I’m left broken on the ground in a vulnerable state
    As in my head I suffer, I suffocate.
    But with a rebel spirit my broken self, I integrate
    ferocious, furious & fearless, a fire within me I create.

    I could relate a lot to these lines, as the poems we write might delight the readers but the fire of darkness keeps us charring, living within us..very relatable!!

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    1. Thank you I’m glad my words were capable of resonating with you in some way. Yes darkness is an integral part of my poems but I guess every star needs some darkness to shine & try to decorate mine hopefully to connect with others who might be going through their own silent battles! Thank you for your kind words πŸ™‚

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  9. Fears have fears too. They exist only in the dark. When we get hold of those, it sets us free.

    This is yet another amazing work of yours!

    I just noticed your blog’s tagline. It’s wonderful as well. (:

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  10. It’s feeling like this fire is due to something really bad…may you feel free from this bad phase…and the way you described this grief it’s the beauty of your writing…good days are coming for those who believe I believe that…have faith and keep us motivate…. πŸ’™πŸ’œ

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